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Thursday, March 28, 2013

A Sad Day

I guess since I blog about all the happy times I have had in my life, I should blog about the saddest times too.  I lost a really good friend and someone I loved more than I ever knew possible.  I have been going back in the days of the blog all the way back to 2008 when I met Matt.  I will never know why and I will never understand it.  I guess I can only hope the pain gets easier to deal with.  It's just so sad.

I guess it is time to accept, Matt has a new life.  He has a new career, a new girlfriend, (well you can't say she is new since she has been around before Cooper was born).  But he has created his new family now with her and her daughter.  I would have never guessed he would have done this, but I really should have known he would have done this.  Guess I am just that niave.   Everyone tells me I deserve better, all I can say to that is "I know, but I loved him".  Hank said "I am a loyal person and that is what makes me so great". I guess the hardest part is that we (my family) just do not have anything really negative to say.  My Dad says "I really liked Matt" Hank says deep down he is probably a really good guy who is really confilicted with the choices he has made".  I don't get it, I just don't understand.

I am so Thankful God gave us Cooper.  He is what keeps me going, he keeps me smiling.  Tonight has been hard on him as well.  I I am sure he wonders why we are not home.  He won't stay asleep unless he is in my arms.  So tonight we sleep on Michelles couch, maybe he knows that his mommy needs loves right now more than ever.  Thats just how smart my guy is.  Love him.

Such a sad day.
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